Hormones

With the last pregnancy, the worst symptom without a doubt was the morning sickness…that lasted all day, every day, for over half of my pregnancy (not even factoring in the prematurity). Thankfully, I have been spared the nausea so far. Unfortunately, my mood swings are violent this time instead. I’m blaming everything on hormones and hating myself for it, but I truly believe my insanity is entirely due to these crazy hormones.

Here are a few examples of my moodiness:
1. I woke up this morning on the wrong side of the bed. I was angry at the dog because she wouldn’t poop when I took her outside. I was mad at M for not taking her outside before he left for work. I was annoyed with PJ for waking up earlier than I wanted him to, which happens to be the exact time he’s woken up every day for the past three weeks.

2. I cried at American Idol last night when someone cried because they were so happy they made it to Hollywood.

3. I’m practically nauseous with jealousy over a friend who just announced her pregnancy on her blog. I’m pregnant too; why am I jealous? Is it just a leftover emotion from last week?

4. I keep getting annoyed with M for no reason at all. I don’t even have specific instances because it’s happened so many times that I can’t remember specifics anymore. The good news is that I’m fighting saying anything hurtful. I don’t think I’ve said anything to hurt him yet.

In addition to these wild mood swings, I’ve been getting super exhausted. I knew this was going to happen, but I didn’t expect it to feel this bad. All of a sudden, it’s like I can’t even move anymore because I’m so tired. That’s not good when you’re supposed to be chasing a toddler and a puppy at the time. It takes everything I have to keep going until PJ’s naptime, or until M comes home and can help out.

Still, I’ll take the hormones and the exhaustion over the nausea any day!

4 Responses to Hormones

  1. Chas says:

    I used to get jealous of other pregnant women when I was pregnant too…I thought I was the only one :).

  2. Emma in Canada says:

    So did I…and now I’m jealous of women with babies younger than mine.

  3. sabsrob says:

    Maybe you feel like she’s stealing your thunder a little bit. Just be thankful you can get pregnant. I’ve been trying for a year and I swear to god every person around me is getting pregnant… on accident of course!

  4. Dani says:

    Amen, sabsrob. OP, your sob story is just that: a sob story. I wish that I could get pregnant. I’ve been trying for nearly nine years, and I HATE all pregnant women and new mothers with the children that I can’t have. Every FUCKING place I go, it feels like they’re parading them in front of me. What really sucks is that I see welfare trash (trust me, this term 100% applies) everywhere when I’m an educated, responsible woman. I know women who pop them out like crazy just to stay on welfare – never mind that they’re breeding beyond the replacement rate and contributing to overpopulation just because they want to and can. Hell, I just want ONE. I feel like I can’t have more because of all of the women who have so many, but you know what? I can’t even have that ONE.

    I wish I could be pregnant just once. I’m tired of being told, “Just get over it,” or, even better, “Just adopt,” as if adoption were for everyone. Holidays? HELL. Mother’s Day? My husband has to keep me away from the knife drawer.

    So don’t even. And if you feel like being snarky to a woman who cries herself to sleep every night because she saw pregnant women and new mothers that day – again, EVERY DAY? Just think this: “I have a baby and she doesn’t, she’s already miserable enough.” You win, okay? I just hate pregnant women, I hate their “complaints” (I’d DIE to endure your “aches and pains” to be able to heal the emptiness in my heart) I hate new mothers, and I hate, hate, HATE it when people say, “Oh, I’m so jealous,” when, HELLO, I – “I” – am the one with the reason to be jealous! At least you had a fucking baby in your uterus when you wrote this. 😡

    Oh, and if some woman gives you dirty looks in the store? She’s probably infertile and in pain, like me.

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