Every few hours I’m forced to go to extremes to try to comfort BabyN again. And sometimes he’s only comforted for a few minutes before the next meltdown starts. My arms and back hurt from holding him, and my emotions are raw. The lack of sleep is impairing my judgment, too. I have to really focus to not do something I’ll regret just to make that harsh cry stop. The stress is getting to me. Right now, he’s screaming in his bed because I just can’t handle it right now. I need a break. (By the way, M is doing everything he can to help, but BabyN usually only quiets down even for a few minutes for me.) None of us are getting enough sleep, which makes us all cranky. And when I’m cranky from lack of sleep, I have a whole lot less patience, especially with hyper and disobedient toddlers who also did not get enough sleep. I want a few hours all to myself, without anyone screaming for my attention. If that doesn’t happen soon, I think I’m going to lose it altogether. I know this stage won’t last forever, but I’m to the point where every extra minute it goes on feels like forever.