Normal. Completely, wonderfully, outstandingly normal. The baby has a heart that pumps blood consistently at about 150 beats per minute. It has a brain, a perfectly sized head, normal internal organs, all its limbs…everything a baby needs.
Now what we don’t know for sure is whether the baby has its “boyness.” I realized last night just how nervous I was about finding out the gender and actually prayed that the baby wouldn’t reveal the gender if I was going to react strongly (i.e. badly) to it. Then I had a dream that we were decorating the baby’s room–in yellow and green. Is anybody surprised that we came home from the appointment no more informed than we were when we left?
We know for a fact that we have either an uncooperative or shy baby. S/he kept those legs crossed throughout the exam. I can imagine him/her grinning in delight at how well s/he kept her secret a secret. At one point, though, we got a glimpse of something between the legs that wasn’t immediately identifiable as the umbilical cord (which seemed to be clasped between the legs). The tech said with a tiny bit of confidence that it was the “deedle,” as she called it. She said if she was in our place, she would buy boy stuff but keep the receipts.
Fortunately, there was enough doubt about it that I didn’t react strongly at all. With PJ’s first ultrasound, he was showing off all he had to offer from the second he popped up on the screen. If this baby had shown that kind of exhibitionism, I probably would have been more disappointed. Here, I’m left with doubt. And the doubt has only increased after getting home and scrutinizing the picture we had printed of his “deedle.” M and I have been debating what exactly it is, but it appears to be either the umbilical cord–again–or possibly even the bone of the leg, and most likely not a “deedle.” We’re still calling it a he, though, and using the name we’d planned to use for a boy. Finding out on the day of the birth that it’s actually a girl will be a nice surprise this way.
Because he was being uncooperative, the tech was unable to get a good look at the kidneys. Just to make sure everything is fine with the kidneys, the tech said the doctor may agree to order another ultrasound for us. That gives us hope that maybe, just maybe, we’ll have another shot to determine this baby’s gender–as long as he’s being more cooperative on that day.
In the meantime, though, it’s a he. But we’re not buying blue clothes covered in footballs and dinosaurs. We’re not that confident what I’m carrying is a boy. It’s yellow and green for the nursery after all–just in case.
By the way, links to the sonogram pictures are coming. I decided to give you all the important information first since I’m guessing some of you have been checking repeatedly for this. Oh, and when the “deedle” picture shows up, feel free to scrutinize it to see what you think. Is it really a deedle after all?
Baby’s face in profile
The deedle shot
Thumbs-up (Baby gave a thumbs-up after successfully thwarting us yet again…I know this one is hard to see.)
The alien-looking face straight on